Bug Stress

I'm taking Bug into the vet early tomorrow morning for X-rays. I talked with someone at the office about how he's been having trouble with his back legs and that's the route they want to take. This means I leave Bug there from 8am until whenever they're done with him. Problem is they may not be done before I go to work. So Pmo may have to pick Bug up on his way home. Which is fine, but I'll have to transfer the pet taxi and money to Pmo somewhere along the way. Plus I won't be there when they explain the results.

I'm just stressed about the whole thing. As I've said before, Bug makes a fool of himself at the vet. I can't imagine what he'll do all by himself. And really me being there doesn't make him act better or anything. I just feel responsible for his behavior. They say they'll have to sedate him and that hasn't happened since he was little. I'm thinking about having them clean his teeth and getting his glands expressed while they're at it.

Oh, I shudder to think of the bill but it all needs to be done. I want him to get better. Actually, he's doing fine today so I hope this isn't all for nothing. But it's been off and on for 2-3 weeks now so something's gotta be up. Seems like Mondays are bad days. I've been walking him and they said he shouldn't be over exerting himself. Oops.

I think another reason I'm upset is that I think it's my fault. I lose my temper and I get a little rough with him sometimes. I don't slam him up against the wall or anything. But I tend to jerk on the leash if he's not going fast enough. Or grab hold of him when he's being exta stubborn in the bathtub. Stuff like that. But I love him dearly and I don't know what I'd do without him. So it's hard for me to comprehend how I can get so angry at him.

Hopefully all will go well tomorrow and we'll find out what's ailing him. Cross your fingers he doesn't make a total ass out of himself and they tell me to never bring him back!